Hmm....i should live a more eventful life so that i can post more offen on my blog

which to choose? pixon 12 or satio

went to hillside bar todea....tried something new....cocktail call " fire blade" nt bad...sweet sweet de....a bit bitter....and there is a mint after taste.....order some food too....taste nice...eventhought it is ex lor.....wa...i have been going to hillside bar very often...1 month i will go like 2-3 times....gonna be broke....

during work my heart area suddenly very pain.....after a while de pain gone...but soon de pain came back and it is constant now....de pain is there thru out my work....and now the pain is still there....am i having a heart problem?

i am working till sch reopen....like cool rite.....no choice...tis holi spend too much money liao...going bars....buying things....eat out ect ect ect.....have to work to cover up...work nt bad quite a easy job....most of de job machine do....so i have to do a bit...then de rest give de machine do...like cool rite....BUT there gt tis chi bai guy....he is a engineer btw ( engineer there is to repair de machine when gt prob)....everytime 1 machine gt a prob...de alarm will sound....and i think my machine already something wrong....even i do nice nice...de alarm will sound...and tis chi bai always come and scold mi...say wat never put properly...wat waste time...wat shit....fk sia...like everytime alarm sound is my problem...de machine spoil de chi bai oso dunno....de machine alarm sound onli come see see touch touch look look...press some button then come scold mi....like tat i oso can be engineer....need u tis kind of chi bai meh....du lan sia....todea...before i go home....oso wan scold mi....chi bai....say wat going home liao.....anyhow put....wtf i fking du lan...as if going home soon means i will anyhow put meh....wa fk si bei du lan....sometimes jus feel like hit him in de face...

ok....todea result out....u knw wat.....IT REALLY SUX TO CORD.....but lucky pass all my modules...except my dpp elective....i flunk that....there goes my dpp cert.....No As for tis sem....and my gpa oso drop until like shit.....damn disappointed....

should i or should i not.....can someone give mi a ans....

one person told mi this before...there are no roads that is smooth....there will be rough patches and you have to overcome it...I have been telling tis to everyone when they are facing some problems...but i still cannot apply to myself....i think is because de previous sem...i manage to pull through those modules i cannot handle wif a c...and now when i am facing a possibility of failing my dpp module,i cannot take it....i am still feeling damn disappointed.....

ok....basically...i finished my exam....but i am nt happy at all....i cock up my adv math paper....is like....half de paper i cannot do...and those i done...some parts not correct....so seriously think i will fail de paper...haiz....i am too confident on this paper le....didn't practise much...fking disappointed wif myself...i hope will pass tis paper...even if i get a bad grade...i dun care....

ok....finish my math...gt a few qns dunno how to do....nt very confident wif those qn i did....damn....this paper 40% of my total....there goes my A....

ok.....exam here.....and i am mugging at home....done 3 em3a paper...and i have nt master it....still cannot do a few qns here and there.....i am damn screwed man....

Finally....something positive.....

Basically...i flunk my bio presentation....over time limit in presenting...bla bla bla.....too many slides....bla bla bla.....

all these weeks.......projects....projects and projects......all coming in....

ytd....when to a hillside bar....have a couple of drinks....have a stella artios....a nice beer....wif a little bit of bitter taste...and min after taste....different frm singapore's beer...eg tiger...8 dollars...330ml....but worth de money la....went wif nich and tdl....they each ordered martini....sit there and chit chat....have a nice night over at de bar....

yes....saito will reach singapore within 3 months....can't wait...

fail one module....have to go retest....sian....

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry

my msn 09 works again....hope it will continue working for my rest of my life....

ok...wanted to watch transformer todea.....but by de time we buy tickets....no more seats....so watch "i love man".....overall nt bad.....romance and a bit of sad part.....sian lor.....have to spend money to watch transformer again....no money arh.....went supper after movie and then bus home.....

basically...i am having my holi....and i recover liao....finally....so enjoying my holi now....ytd went out...went around aimlessly.....so decide to went to a shopping center....which have a lot of lan shops....kill our time with a game of L4D and pool.....then we went home....lol

i si bei heng la.....straight after my mst....i kena high fever....actually thur night have mild fever liao....then i tot nth serious....so i jus took panadol....i dun wan to see a doc cause de doc sure won't let mi go sch take my paper....then i took like 5 panadol.....de fever never go down....bo pian go see doc....de doc take my temp....i shock sia....39.4.....hum tio....super high sia.....doc say....my throat inflection....causing high fever and cough.....now anywhere oso cannot go.....have to stay at home yang bing

they will hosting gundam's birthday celebration next month in tokyo......

time to mug again....

yes.....satio formally known as idou....will be out on nov.....finally...de phone i have be waiting for....

its time for mi to do something about it.....

wow....lastest update for idou.....it is gonna haven tv functions and wi-fi.....is like....wow lor....a phone wif tis kind of functions.....is like a all rounder phone lor....cool....i think it will nt come cheap.....

going camp tml.....will be back on sun

ok....i am sick....offically sick....down wif a flu...

my road leading to my future is misty......

jus brought a flip flop frm new urban male.....gt a 20% discount brought it at 39.90....brown and white in colour...love it.....

ok....my msn 09 zhou stun again....dun allow mi to sign in to my acc....si bei fk up....wat happen sia....my laptop like suddenly anti it....i try to sign in on my desktop can sia....fk sia....so down grade to msn 08 now....i wan to format my com....but cannot need use all de software to lesson....faster holi...then i can format....arrrrrrrrrrrr

jus brought a hoodie frm esprit....cost mi 39.30.....next i am buying a flip flop frm new urban male....which will cost 49.90.....but dunno wat colour to buy....still thinking....

fk......chi bai......i cannot login msn wif my current acc....onli tis acc.....wat happen men

ok....jus reach home....ytd evening went steamboat wif jh,alvin,nich,yc and tdl at geylang.....after tat.....jh and alvin decide to head home while de rest of us decide to watch a late night movie....before tat we decide to venture into the deeper side of geylang....which is where de "chicken" work or "prey" on man.nt a gd day cause todea gt police petrol so most of de "chicken" was hiding if nt they will be standing by de lamp post trying to get business....so we walk around to see we can get something or nt....so when we walk pass a brothel,tis uncle (i think is de pimp) called us....and asked ask we wan service ma...we jus walked away....tis prove tat they do nt care how old their costumer is.....they jus wan to earn money...so even if a 10-15 yr old kid walk pass...he will oso call him and ask him do he wan service.....is like wth.....but if we put ourselves in their shoe....they are oso earning a living so cannot blame them.

tis few days started to fancy on yuna ito.....a nt so gd looking singer but have a very nice voice....love her voice....and songs......

taking the mrt in the morning is like fighting a battle....lol

imeem dun allow de full song to be posted at blogs....lol....is like preview onli....

fri......

nth much todea.....went to club meeting.....wa lao eh.....is like boys more then girls lor....all come see girls onli....lol....but there are oso a few cute girls too....lol.....then went for bb....went to experiment my leg....ok...can run but restricted.....so basically...can run onli...

wed
todea have my basic jap convo class....learn basic jap....how to greet ppl....self into....write hiragana....actually quite easy de....cause hiragana is like chinese hanyu ping yin....example....gd morning in jap is ohayou....then de chart they gt de letter at de bottom...then u jus match it and write de hiragana out.....


de chart look like tis....



so o ha yo u....look at de chart and find it urself....


ans: おはよう




thur
didn't go sch todea....cause of some personal matters.....

todea is de 2nd day of sch.....as usual i am slacking....nearly late for lesson...todea onli have 3 hrs lesson....9-12.....ok....we will like studying for like 30-45 mins....then teacher give us a break....we went to makan place for breakfast....went back like 45 mins later....late for lesson....went in and sit down....about 20 mins later...she release us...lol....so altogether we like have less then 1 hr lesson....can u imgine 3 hrs lesson become less then 1 hr lesson....haha.....i can say....she is slacking like hell.....

ok.....todea first day of sch.....very slack....late for every single class todea....haha....yr 2 liao.....need to joke and play around liao.....haha.....i tot todea lecturer will slack too....won't teach todea....but......they super kiasu lor.....i go in the class....they start teaching liao....every single lesson todea.....wa....i stun tio lor....we dun have notes and they can jus teach like tat....but....cannot understand anything lor....was like trying to visualize wat the lecturer trying to say....but nth go in la....

ok....went fishing on fri...basically caught nth.....pitch our tent up and slack in de tent to wait for yc to come....went prawn fishing after tat....caught 12 prawns....we bbq it....we went back around 5 am...took a cab....arggggggg tml sch reopen...sian

going fishing tml.....and camping overnight there....till sat....

todea went cycling wif de yep friends at ecp.....we cycled frm ecp to changi village...a very very very long Journey is like it covers de whole ecp + the airport runway + changi beach = reach changi village.....cycle until leg pain + butt pain....cannot tahan....last time i gonna cycle so long....

ytd went sentosa wif subaa.....is like first time i go out wif her.....enjoy disturb her.....for more details go subaa blog...

since i injured my leg.....it have been fking useless.....a lot of movement is restricted....i cannot stand too long....i cannot wear too long....now.....i cannot even sit for too long......jus now i took bus home....was a 1 hr bus trip.....my leg start to pain halfway.....i have to endure until i get off.....i am totally fked up......when will my leg recover?

i won't be a bad person.....

dunno why...this few days....when i wake up....gt this weird weird feeling.....the feeling is like...a dead person walking.....my mind is blank.....cannot think Properly........

my leg hurts....
my back hurts....

ouch......

somehow missing my time in vietnam.....

I am back ytd....overall 50% fun 50%horrible life.....

难道一个机会也不给我吗？

从我们分开的那一天开始，我一直对我们的感情有那一丝丝的希望。可是今天你却亲手把这个希望给打碎。我真的不知道要这么作。有一个人问我，你还爱她吗？我说，我爱。那个人又问，那你要不要和她从新在来。和她在一起？我说，我想，可是我们还可能在一起吗？那个人不知道这样回答。我自己也不知道这样回答。每天我只能想着她，想着我们在一起的快乐的回忆。想念着她亲手作的 special sauce，想念着她叫我 dear，想念着她的 tickle，想念着牵着她的手，想念着她关心我，爱我，疼我的感觉 和很多很多的东西。我真的好想这些会回到我身边。从始至终，我对她的爱一点也没变，我也自爱她一个，我从来没有放弃过我们的感情，可是我不知道你放弃了吗。我好想再叫她darling，找顾她，爱她，疼她，唱歌给她听，把她养的她养得胖胖的。你能再给你，给我和给我们的感情一个机会吗？我不想再后悔了，如果我不再把她追回来，我一定会后悔一身。应为她是我最重要的一个人。当我和她在一起的时候，我从来没有对其他人说我爱她。我就在这里对大家说 我爱张诗慧。

我不知道你 会不会看到和读到这些东西，可是这些都是我的真心话，每个字，每一行字都是我要对你说的真心话。

holiday now.....but it's nt a holiday for mi.....going vietnam on de 16....2 weeks trip....sort of cip trip la.....going to de village...build wall and fence.......todea went for de jab...3 jabs for $100....very ex...

there is something i need to do...no matter what will de result be....or i knw i will regret for de rest of my life...

kk...i wanna thx my bros in ploy and my clique for de surprise birthday celebration and de presents....for my bros in ploy...thx for de cake...and thx for de smash in my face arh....for my clique....thx for de cake too...and de gundam too...love it loads....i will make it nice nice...take pics then post on blog ok....

and a special thx to you....thx for celebrating my birthday....

brought tis model suit ytd...gundam 00-GN002 dynames....cool rite...spend 1 and a half night to finish it....love it man....

ok first....happy new yr to all....spend my last day of 2008 wif tdl,rig,yc and jh......we went to marina to watch de fireworks....wow...de fireworks really nice....cool...then we thon(stay out) whole night...when to watch a midnight movie at plaza sin....watched twlight...ok la i dun think tis movie for mi....then after tat walk around orchard....i found out tat a lot of ppl oso thoning outside....cause the streets is full of ppl...i expected tat the streets to be dark and no ppl 1 lor.....i oso found out tat teenages younger then mi is outside thon...i think they are like sec 2 sec 3 like tat lor....surprised.....took the first train home....

ok....todea when to watch a skit performed by tdl's fren.....de skit quite nice....i tot his fren main actor...cause he like invite all his fren...but in de end he onli a very very very small actor...but nvm...after tat when to cathay cineplex to catch a movie....the day when the earth stood still...if u all think tis movie is bout doomsday or wat alien invasion...u all r wrong....it is bout a alien frm another planet tat does not wan de humans to destory de earth...so they came to earth to collect living things....then destory everything on earth...include humans...then rebuild earth....

ok ratings for de movie...

action: 7/10

plot: 5/10

ending: 4/10 (de ending sux)

overall:
ok la...can watch...but not for movies lover....

ok....went chalet wif de chinese boys....at costa sand pasir ris.....enjoyed myself....have fun....then my com spoil...like wat sia...cannot use....but hai hao....at there gl them....disturb them....fighting each other....and eat.....

finally...ct finish....stress week...keep studying....

math...hai hao
del....nt bad
ael....gone case
biophy...gt a little hope
chem....sure fail...

haiz....i dun think i will do well for tis ct...well its over....so enjoy de holi ba....
i think i need brush up my dota skills....cause it sux to core....

simple and classic....

sat.....
went to ss todea...saw de sweets i brought for her sis's birthday chalet......having flashback again....

sun.....
todea went to food expo....wa lan...frm yee tee to expo damn far leh....2 hrs plus ride....inside de food fair...ok la...buy some food....then taste de samples.....brought those that taste 1 ma....went home...have some rest....then jh jio mi go dinner...went food court for dinner wif tdl and jh....then went to a park...chat a while then go home.....


i want to take jap class.....dunno leh....feel like taking class to upgrade myself....人生短短几十年....i feel that we try or learn something that u like....but...who wan take wif mi?at least i gt a fren wif mi...dunno can ask....hw can copy ma....who ean take tell mi ok....

WTH IS HAPPENING.......why is everything going frm bad to worst.....first my i failed my biophy quiz....and tis is de first fking quiz i failed.....jus because de com ans wrong...we have to - marks....and then now.....my project teammate copied my work....which dunno....and de teacher found out.....now i am under investigation.....i might get a record and fail tis fking assignment....and tis assignment is a fking 20% of my whole module.....

i really dunno wat to do....everything seems going de wrong way.....

我真的好累......我好希望你还在我身边.....股利我，安慰我....
我真的好希望你永远陪在我身边....

我好累.......我真的好累........

I finally realise something....our relationship will not gonna work....may be tis past 1 yr is a mistake....eventhough we were truly in love.I believe even is we r not going to break up now....i knw we will break up in de future...it is a matter of time....our relationship have lots of problems...which till now i then discover....我认命了....it is fated...they we cannot be together....i will jus move on wif my life wif those memories kept deep deep in my heart....

对不起....

todea have IAC and COMT,ok la....do project lor....nth much....

wed.....
nth much....practical....leng leng....finished within 1 hr....then i and my frens went to can 2 eat breakfast set....cause they like enjoy de breakfast set....therefore i oso went to try it....ok la...normal breakfast lor...we slack at canteen....was late for class....but...lecturer never come...so sudden lor....then worst...i never bring laptop....nth to do sia...so went to library wif my fren...we borrow de spiderman 3 dvd...and watch it...skip lunch to finish de movie...haha...de rest of de day...boring lesson...

thur.....
oso nth much todea....biophy test gt 27/50...damn fk up lor...i think i lowest in class sia...sian-ed...

fri.....
woots...i love fri....have chem quiz...ok la...in front very easy...last qn dunno how to do.....but i think can pass....then break....finished compro....then gaming lor....game until 3...have compro lesson till 5.....rush home to finish comt...then went for bb.....

sat.....
todea sent dinner wif tdl,alvin and nich....cause we long time never meet up wif nich...went to siam kitchen...lol...overall we ate 70 plus....and we are nt even half full...wanted to buy a shorts frm fresh box...but too ex...35 dollars sia....went to top man....all dun suit mi....then walk around...then walked to raffles hotel...then walked to raffles link....went to swiss hotel...cause nich say gt a swimming pool...can see whole singapore...but cannot find....nvm...trained to bukit gombak...went to have prata then went home....


sun....
went swimming....i swam 20 plus 30 laps sia...woots...de feeling damn nice....then sun tan...i wan tan until black black sia...but i think after 3 months later then can see result....

mon....
todea..e-learning..so no sch lor...morning meet up wif my grp mates in woodlands...we went to de civil building de mac to do our project and finish de e-learning task...lol....rushing de e-learning thingy then contiune wif our project....had lunch at mac lor....cause we stay there until 4 plus....while eating...a lot of flashback...i rmb last time we everytime go mac...we will have our lunch or dinner there....and without failure...she will make her special sauce for mi...it really taste very very nice....i love it....i miss de sauce...i miss eating wif u....i miss u....


tue....
todea...nth much....found out that biophy tutorial todea last day....so we rushing....but some qns dunno how to do....and todea lesson until 3 onli...so went to library...finish it lor....but in de end onli play game...lol....btw..i have decided to go vietnam....it is a half a month overseas cip project lor....next yr march then go....

雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究

你说你不懂为何在这时牵手

我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动

就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦 分开了叫 痛

是不是说没有做完的梦最痛

迷路的后果 我能承受

这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间

静静的把那拥抱变成永远

在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠

如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间

把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天

越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究

你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手

我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动

就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦 分开了叫 痛

是不是说没有做完的梦最痛

迷路的后果 我能承受

这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间

静静的把那拥抱变成永远

在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠

如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间

把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天

越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该不该

在这个时候 说了我爱你

要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气

请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃

我只有那一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间

静静的把那拥抱变成永远

在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠

如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间

把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪 让他留在雨天

越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该 不该不该

在这个时候说了爱你

要怎么证明我没力气

告诉我暂停算不算放弃

我说我不该 不该在这时候才说爱你

要怎么证明我没有力气

我只有那一天的回忆

found this song...very nice....this is de mv

tue - thur....
tis week past very fast....i like tat....faster de better....cause i like weekends...can relax....nth much la....go sch everyday lor....same routine....nth special.....

fri.....
todea quite ok.....chem...start learning mol.....learn before....so nvm....help tong on del and ael....i rmb all de ans ma.....but teacher keep diao us...cause we use laptop....aiya...dun care....then 3 hrs break....went to library...and play games...after tat go compro...we finish de things very fast...wat to do....i and other three of my frens r de 四大天王 in compo.....then we start gaming again....after tat why to west mall buy secret(dvd)...watched once...i find it nice...so i brought and watch it again....went home...then went bb....we have a full court match wif some kids...and we kena thrash sia....run until like siao....then nich and rig came...surprised....so have another full court match....after tat went to have supper...as we r damn hungry...went home...bath and watch de dvd i brought....


sat....
whole day very sian....eat,play,sleep.....sian lor...whole day toking wif jh....they all lor....and think a lot of things....now i knw there r a lot of things i need to plan sia....so must start planning liao.....sian.....

sun.....
morning toking to jh....he jio mi go swimming....actually dun wan....but at home nth do....so go lor....i was surprised.....i begin to like swimming.....then jh say wan plan wat overseas trip wif twss...then i was like...ok....cordeiro so niao....where will accept....but still i think...can go ahead wif it.....so maybe next yr ba....lol....(tis 1 random tots).

thur....
todea lesson start late...cause morning no prac....first i have math tutorial...then AEL lecture....1 whole hr...we dunno wat de lecturer toking...nvm...break...after break...we have biophy...passing around games and taking games as i brought my harddrive to sch....then we started to play dota....lucky brought my mouse or nt must use mousepad liao lor...then break again....went to library...play game....finally we have AEL tutorial...i tot no need bring bk 1...so i didn't bring...a lot of us dun have de bk...s0 nvm....we say can find in mel ma de qns...print liao we do on foolscape lor....oso same...but she say cannot...must have de bks....but it is de same rite....in de end make us go photocopy de qns...lol...print let her see...she then happy....lol....

fri....
finally fri....wa lao....can rest liao....will die....tis week a lot of work.....now gt time to finish liao......todea morning gt chem....extra elective....ok la...study before liao....so all i knw....then 3 hrs break....after lunch..went to library...dota......until 3 then went for compro lesson...jus keep typing code lor...code after code...will die....sian arh....have been sick for de whole week...now still coughing....sch canteen nth i can eat...wa lao....whole week eat noodles....oso sick liao....faster recover...

tue...
we to sch attend lectues lor....all damn boring.......as our previous lesson realease us early...we have a early lunch break....then we went up to our next class...hoping tat de door will be open so tat we can use de room...but other ppl still having lesson...we sent to another room(which is nt our classroom) and try our luck...and de door is open!!!!!we went in and played mousepad dota...sux lor...can't even move....i am moving around de map most of de time....lol...then 1 lecturer come in...and told us nt to play games...lol...then went to class lor.....after having programing lesson...went to biophy...lol...two whole hrs...play mousepad mini games...lol....never listen....kan sian lor de lesson.....


todea...
morning have prac....15 mins finish liao....but lecturer say too early...tok and tok...tok until 8.50 then can go.....after tat went to borrow three bb and play bb in sch.....jus shoot for fun lor....then lesson and lesson until 4.....kan sian....actually wan pon 3pm lesson one...tutorial.....but in de end still go....

wat a day....todea time pass so slowly...i dunno why....nt feel well frm morning...sore throat....body ache and i think i have a fever...struggling thru de two lessons i have todea...did nt have my lunch..cause dun feel like eating....i dunno why suddenly i am sick...i am ok on sun...and mon i woke up...i gt a fever...strange...

todea i did nt do anything for my grp...i am jus slacking there....looking at them....i dunno why....i jus dun feel like doing work....during com class....i am toking in msn...playing games instead of listening to teacher toking.....

ytd after i read ur post....i cried....i really cried....i can't help it...i dunno why....till now...whenever i read de post...my eyes will filled wif tears....i jus come automatically...can't help it...sry....

I MISS U......

finally...i could nt hold on anymore.....i cried todea....this cry will mark de start of our sepration.althought this few months will be de toughest period but i will hold on.i knw if i manage to pass this few months...everything will be ok for mi le.jus hope i manage to gone thru it ba....

todea will have two blogs...cause two different post....different mood one...

really long time tat never post tis kind of post le....

i am having mixed feelings now...i seriously dunno wat to do....everything is nt de same anymore....now i dun even knw wat is de truth...wat is a lie.....i dunno wat u r thinking or u wan to do.....i really dunno does it matters to u anymore.....i wanted to knw how u feel...wat u thinking...but wat u told mi those nt convince mi.....i dunno whether u say tat to please mi or wat......i dunno is tat really wat u mean....it is nt de same.....i really dunno and i really wan to knw....pls tell mi....tell mi de truth....

new sem started....a very very boring and bad sian....long hrs....boring lessons....kan sian....cannot tahan anymore....everyday we will tok and joke in class....is like no ppl listening in class lor...some toking...some sleeping ....some playing com....sian la....how to pass tis sem.....

sun......
went to de air show...boring lor...halfway raining....is llike wtf....then went to comex IT show lor....wif tdl,jh,yc and alvin...went to see gt anything cheap items to buy ma.....manage to get a external hard drive and a mouse.....de external hard drive is really a gd catch la.....seagate somemore...wooooo.

mon....
went to sgh to work....1 day work la....went to do logitics lor....carry things around....nth much....then on de way back...de angency called and say they found another job ask us go down sign lor....then go imm eat dinner.....

tue...web...thur...fri...
when to work in FnN.....in de IPL dept which i oso dunno wat it means....wa lao...de work there siao....carry so many things....all heavy things sia....then must stand for 12 hrs man.....everywhere oso pain...is like wtf...kk will stop here going sleep...tired...bb....

wooooo.....end of exam and start of holi......have been waiting for tis day to come......but very sian leh....stay at home nthing to do....rotting at home....found a job....send my resume le...waiting for reply....dunno must wait until when....so finding a backup job.....sian arh......

wooooooo.....two paper down...one more to go......have math and el tech paper on fri and todea....math paper is ok...nt bad.....el tech leh....i think will flunk....nt gd at el tech....all phy...sure die.....mon paper...eng mech....hope get gd marks for it.....

I WAN TIS SAMSUNG I900



so chio~~~~~~

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.......I PASS MY BIO PAPER........surprise sia....de paper damn difficult lor....and i like never study.....WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....gt a B for it....so happy......

lol....wat a word to start a post....nvmtis whole week study week...so no need go sch..but gt revision for todea and tml lor....need to start study liao....kk...nthing much things happened lor....go sch...then come home play...sleep....boring life....1 week more to holi...yea...hehe....btw...thinking of buying a new laptop cooler...cause de one i brought now like no power....dunno gt wind ma...wanna buy a new and powerful one...hehe....ppl gt lobang or place tat gt sell pls tell mi ok...

feimao here to blog again =).....todea no lesson...hehe....so go make ic lor....cause i lose my wallet sia....wtf.....jio tdl go wif mi....wtf...$100 sia...heartpain sia...damn pain....give mde gov $100 for nthing sia....then go eat lor...go home rest then go bball...todea dunno wat happen...kena hit by de same guy(which i dunno) three times sia....wtf....ok la...tat wat happen todea lor...bb

hi ppl long long long time never blog....nvm...jus change a new blogskin...(lol as if u all cannot see).gundam....my fav...wooooooooooooo.....and de song...so nice.....nvm....nthing ,more to blog lor....see u next time....

ps...when my birthday come...jus buy mi a gundam model suit can le...hehe...thx

yey...i finally found de song i wan...tis song is call REASON...can be found in de anime call gundam seed destiny la....i oso found de lyrics...it is very meaningful la...i will post de lyrics here...actually...i find tis lyrics for my darling lor...tis song and lyrics is for her....

REASON'S LYRICS:
The further we are apart,
the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength...
when I think of you.

In a time where streets, people and dreams change,
I could only oppose them.
I still did not realize,
That there are things that can't be conveyed even with words.
My lost dreams of wanting to hold you by my side,
For them, you said, "Don't give up!"
The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.
The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream.
Believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting.
In the days without you, I've stopped moving.
But now I am walking out of here.
All the coincidences we shared, certainly
They all have their meanings.
When our dreams comes true one by one, and we meet again,
The coincidences become destiny.
If even the torn promises can change into vows,
Can we also change back to the two of us from the time we met at that place?
The dear faces that resemble "kindness".
I can see with my eyes closed, I know you are here without our hands touching.
Even if I can't see the astrayed answers tomorrow,
I carry the truth known as "today" in order to meet you.
The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.
The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream.
As it is, believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting.

haha...blogging in sch again...jus like last fri lor...having 3 hr break...now wif my frens doing hw...haha...later gt quiz...tat weight 5% of my gpa...and now i can still blog instead of studying...todea heard a news tat make mi very happy...we can actually transfer to another sch...if we wan to....u cam oso transfer to another course...but u can onli do tat after a yr...which means...if i wan to transfer...i will be studying wif de news student coming in next yr....means i need to so call stay back a yr...hiaz..i dunno wat to do....i wan to get into marine engineering...haiz...should i do it or nt...one yr means a lot leh....or should i transfer to sp...but stay in de same course...i really dunno leh....can someone help mi...i really confuse...argggggg.headache...how...how...tell mi how....

haha....back to blogging again....three weeks of sch have passed....more or less settled down...but my holiday mood still there...arh....every week i will be loooking forward for de weekends...cause i can rest...haha....things r getting more difficult...work r getting diffcult...sometimes i dunno wat de hell de lecturer toking bout...trying to cope lor..haha...i think i am still doing fine....haha...stop here for my ploy life....i really miss 4a a lot men....miss having class wif 4a....4a is still de best...but at least de chinese boys in 4a manage to meet max three days in a week....we play bb...and slack in de library....have lots of fun....we r united men....haha...

haha...can u believe it...i am blogging at tis time...haha...first time blogging inside de sch...hahaha....u may think i am blogging during class...wrong....i am now having my break....until 3...is frm 12-3...every tue...so long break for wat....cut short my break...then my fri will be shorter...haiz...why timetable like tat...sian....now in library....doing my tutorial half way...then sian...so blog lor....haha....ok la...going back to my work liao.....so many work...it is like never ending....finish one...de other on come liao...de onli day can rest is fri....lol...

haha....i am here to blog again...first week of sch had passed...quite ok la...slacking lor....trying to adept to ploy life....and get myself to like my course....haha....learn quite a lots of things....ploy life is different....lecturer will end their lecture if they finish fast...tat ia wat i like bout tat....but i still hate my timetable..cause..it is damn bloody long....longer then all my frens in other course....so very sian lor....so lesson is nice while some r boring lor...but it always come to a word..sian...cause studying is always sian....haha....sometimes during lecture...i think of de times i have when i am in 4A....missing de times studying in 4A man....scolding by teacher....toking to yee da...nich and jh...haha...ok la..will end here....second week start tml le...must study....later fail module....(touchwood)

tis yr have been a bad yr for mi..everything jus nt going rite...first did nt get to de course i wan..then everytime quarrel wif darling...dunno why we jus quarrel and quarrel....a little things oso quarrel...something i was so fared up...i feel like give up on everything..jus end it la...why suffer man...but i love her...my love for her overcome tat...so in de end i jus calm myself down and try to say something sweet to make her happy...de day before de ece foc...tot can dun quarrel...but in de end oso quarrel...during de camp..i missed her so much...i miss until i wanted to cry..i miss until i wanted to bk out of camp to meet her....can u imagine how much i missed her....ytd nite...i tot we could have sometime to tok thru de phone...in de end we quarrel again...i said a lot of things to hurt her...i really do nt mean wat i say...i am damn tired ytd..i dunno why this things jus shoot out frm my mouth...i really dunno wat i am thinking and doing....she really angry wif mi....i am confused now...really dunno wat to do....de word break keep coming to my head....haiz...last month i read something bout my luck...relationship all those things...tat it said i will have a broken relationship tis yr...those singles will nt have a gf tis yr...and those having relationship will nt last...at first i dun believed it..but now look like it going to happen to mi....if my darling happens to read tis post....(cause i am nt going to tell her tat i wrote tis post...)i really love her....i love her more then i loved myself....she will always be my darling no matter wat happens...i love her very much...really i do...if i can...i wish to love her forever....and i really sry for wat i said ytd..really sry...

yea...long time never post...sry la....tis two weeks very busy...lots of things going on at np...last week have a npsu foc camp...which is 4d3n la...tat camp was damn fun...i was in tis group call zeta pi...tis big group is made out of four small group...and i was in apple pi...woooooooooooo...apple pi rox...made a lot of frens there lor...we bonded very well together...all very high..we cheer and cheer...we danced together at de disco nite....then tis week..i gt ece foc...which i jus came back frm...tis camp ht tat fun la...compared wif npsu foc...npsu better....my group did nt bond well together la...but still manage to make a few frens there....gt a sunburn at my back...pain sia...cannot lie down on my back...ok la stop here for de camp things...

again i am here to blog...went for my class outing on tue....it was really fun...de games...enjoyed it very much...but bad thing is it kept raining...de rain come and go....but we dun mind..play under de rain....it is quite refreshing....love de amazing race...running around...finding de pic using de clues given....so fun....ytd went to pei tong pri sch to do community work....it is a carehut...tat provide single parent child childcare sevice...so tat their parent can go to work...it is quite fun....playing wif them...taught them how to do their work...eating wif them...i am surprise tat they dun feel shy at all....they bonded wif mi very fast....it is a gd exp for mi...yea...tis week is quite a eventful week...haiz..after next week...it will be a busy week for mi...orientation camp...all those...ok stop here for todea...

haha...a few days never blog le...nvm...lame rite...dun care bout mi...too boring i think...last week when chalet my de chinese...having fun there....have a bbq dinner there..it started to rain after i and jh started de fire...suai rite....then we bring in de charcoal to have a indoor bbq...everything was alrite...suddenly there is a loud pop sound...u knw wat...de tiles broke...faster clean everything up and wash de floor...hope tat de person never see when they come to check..waited until 9pm and have our bbq again...i had my "dinner" at 11 pm sia...then bath lor...tis time special...we bath together...cause due to some reason...we have to do tat...but quite fun la...tat gamble..tat all we do there...eat..play psp...gamble...sleep..boring chalet rite...but i find it fun...k la...stop here...

nthing much happened todea...jus sitting in front of de com...making some ringtones and finding themes for my hp...haha...who to listening to songs frm boa...she rox man..she de best...her song rox...is like u will fall in love with her songs...it is nice...u all must try it out...u all will love it...darling wrote something bout mi....quite touching...love it very much...for those wan to listen to boa song....jus go www.imeem.com.. go playlist and type boa....de whole list will appear..jus pick one and listen....

haha...long time no blog le...reopening my blog todea...maybe cause nthing much to do le....so come back blogging lor...change my blogskin too...haha...quite nice...let mi tell u wat i have been doing...have been working at sheng shiong for de past three months...jus wan to exp wat working life is....it is quite ok...there is ups and downs...but overall it is ok...the aunties there r helping mi watever they can....ytd was my last day...lots of aunties brought mi chocolate...quite touching...my godmother gave mi one big box of chocolate and a necklace..althought it look kinda weird...but it look very nice...i will nt forget her....haha..ok la..tat all for todea...tata...

btw..those who wan to knw where i am posted to...i gt into ngee ann ploy...biomedical engineering...

todea post will be a very long one...cox inside it will be everything i had bottled up tis month...and i really can't take it anymore....she have been doing it tis while...hurting mi again and again...and i am tat stupid guy tat keep quiet and pretented tat nthing has happened...keeping everything to myself....i have enough of everything and i am going to let it out....i dun care tis will going to lead to a break in my relationship or wat....why must she do tis to mi...nt once...but again and again....why must she hurt mi again....why can't she jus get away from hs...why must they do it in front of mi....wat did i do wrong to get all tis....i always tok tat our relationship will be a very sweet one...but i am wrong....i had been doing my part to make tat come true...did she...i already told her tat i am nt comfortable bout she getting close to him....she knw it...but why must she contiune to do it...i dun mind they toking to each other...but they r touching each other like nobody business...worst in front of mi...treating mi as if i am nt there...does she knw tat it really hurts mi when she is doing all tis....does she knw tat she is slasing down de same wound again she left last time...why can't she jus understand mi...why can't she jus stop getting close to him...WHY....sometimes i wonder....is hs her bf...or i am her bf...she onli knws tat i am hurting her...causing her to cry....but does she knw tat she is doing de same to mi...100 times more then i have hurt her....i really dun understand...i can scrafice so much for her...and she can't scrafice a boy for mi....i dun wish to contiune anymore...it will onli make my life worst....

to somebody...
it really does make a big difference without u...without u our life is much happier...sometimes i really wish tat u disappered frm us.....u had been giving us prob and u dun even knw...

todea have dnt lesson...so tired...stand for dunno how many hrs..but done a lot of things...learn a new things todea...when a person is concentrating on doing a thing...we can do it twice as fast....

todea nt a very eventful day...stay at home do hw....dnt..chem...very boring....ytd went to jalleh's wedding...at st mary church...quite a nice church....sit there and listen to de ppl there toking and singing...after tat went for a short break...then went to acc darling...dun think it is accompanying her...cox we quarrel on de way..and never tok to each other....then went to marina bay wif yu cong they all for dinner....have wat bbq steamboat...de place so hot..cannot tahan...after tat went home and chat wif darling...i think i will stop here....frm todea onwards..i will be posting everyday for de sake of my darling....

tis few days never post cox keep staying out late to acc my darling...then reach home very tired le....todea ae usual go for lesson...quite boring...but time pass quite fast....after tat bring darling go my godma house to play wif mindy all lor...play until i very tired...run here...run there...dunno why darling gt so much energy to follow them...i was like wan to die le...haiz....dunno why thou tis few weeks...i came out wif a thinking in mind....there is no one on de world we can trust but onli ourselves....but to mi there r a few trusted frens tat is always there to help...but for sure my darling is de one i can trust compeletly...but there r one or two out there tat seem to help...but in their heart they have a motive...a motive to do something....k la...dun wan say too much on it....i dun give a damn on those ppl...and i dun even regard them as my frens....ok....but i wan to end my post todea wif a happy note...todea really have a gd time wif my darling....found out a lot bout my darling tat i never get to knw last time....realise tat my darling is more then perfect le....

todea have o lvl mt...ok la...can do....but nt having confidence to get A1....maybe a B3 lor....after paper...go mac...then send andrea home...after tat bring darling go see mindy they all lor...saw her first thing they run....very shy....haiz...tml still must go math camp...no holiday for mi....

todea oso nthing much...tml will be de chinese o lvl paper.....quite scared....but after all de encouragement my darling gave mi...ok le...afternoon...study wif darling through de phone...teach mi a lot of things....all must memorise...jus finish onli de important things..still gt a lot things...k la...go study le...all de best to everyone out there taking chinese tml....especially to my darling....

nthing much todea...wake up early in de morning....then had been using de com until now...since morning...had been trying to find a new blogskin...search very long...finally came by tis blogskin...quite nice and meaningfully.....so decided to change...actually tis time..de main theme i am trying to find is something tat is stuitable for both of us...so can say tat i change tis blogskin for her....hope she like it...

nthing much tis week....tis week all de first three periods convert to mt...cox next mon will be our o lvl mt paper....doing paper after paper...lower my confidence a bit cox i can't do de paper well...all dunno how to do...having a lot of difficulties....haiz....dunno wat to do lor....todea teacher give us motivation tok...i have conpletely change my view for our teachers....they really care for us...willing to sit down for so long jus to discuss how to help us...and kinda like tat new plans....then mr cheok is like saying dun spend ur time together in de school..wat after school then can spend time together...then can have dinner together...and he is looking at mi..wa lao...should knw wat he mean liao lor.....r probs raising?i dunno...but probs jus lies wif mi...maybe after we grad tis probs will nt bothers us anymore....

todea nt gonna write much....nt in a gd mood todea...probs after probs...had be making mi very depress....plus getting back my result...more depressing...dunno wat to do...i am very tired...really very tired....wish everything can jus stop....

it is already de third day...had nt been facing any prob these few days except todea...facing some kind of probs lor...kinda jealous over him and her....but i think it is solved...after getting clear over something...why must ppl get jealous...really hate tat feeling...nt going to write long...but i think we r happy like tis...keep having tis feeling tat i am sharing her wif him....dunno tis feeling is true or nt....